Family

I'm at a picnic with my step moms family and it is so awkward. They are very Spanish. And they are not diet friendly, not that most picnics are but like even not at picnics..like no one has diet soda and they think I'm crazy or weird because I want one. I just ate like a pig and purged I couldn't take the ridicule and pressure from everyone. Why can't I just be skinny?? No one ridicules you for being fat. Well ya know..they probably do. They probably envy me and make fun of me because they're insecure about theirself.. well this post has been insightful for me.

Then they brought out a cake for me and told me the Mexican tradition is to bite the cake..I cannot believe I fell for that. Face meet cake. Purged that too. :( ugghh